feel comfortable enough with my body to wear shorts happily this summer :)

i’ve decided i prefer to wear skirts, but i could wear shorts now i think :) not that i should ever stop working on this goal! just wanted to get the list cleared since my time limit has expired! you guys rock, keep it up!!

five days left!! idk how i did if i did, but i feel better and i hope i did sooo good! been sick this past week so didn’t make it to the gym at all, but i plan on going back today :)) my personal goal is almost here! i’m nervous and excited and nervous, i don’t want to do that crash diet thing at all lol. wish me luck!

went shopping, spent a ton of money, got a cute skirt but no shorts ‘^. oops! lol.

supposed to go shopping this morning, i’ll update you on whether i actually do or not :))

well, i think after friday the binging will end. two tests down, two tests and three papers to go. no alcohol tomorrow night, hopefully we can get messed up another way, idk, i’ll bring cash in case.

i think i can i think i can… i’m the little engine that could!

i seem to have come to a stand-still. i’m still trying, but my motivation isn’t all there, and i’ve been having a few too many drinks and sugary stuff than i’d intended. someone motivate me!

i’m so proud of all of this! i can’t wait to go shorts shopping! i feel so great about myself for sticking to this, and even now my body after two months is so used to healthy food that if i, for instance, have a drink or eat fried food i get really physically sick lol.

also my gym time has become holy to me.

i can’t wait to see pics of us all in shorts! lol, idk that i’ll ever be ready but i sure do hope so!

i dunno if anyone else does this, but i have something important to me happening friday and so i dunno, it’s like, i make sort of mini goals? not goals, goals is the wrong word. it’s phrased like this:

“if i go to the gym every night this week and really work hard, everything will go the way i want it to on friday”

i guess it’s like conditions for success? also i have a feeling skipping class would ruin it too, so i’ve been going to every class even though it’s the week before spring break.

i hope everything goes well friday and that all this gym work really DOES make everything go well :((

so that personal trainer i met the other day who is just a friend and not my trainer was walking today but i didn’t realize the gym closed at 7pm and i got there at 645 cause i was working, told me to go in anyway because something is better than nothing. he told me that he didn’t want me to go running because it was dark and he would be worried, and that simple act of concern from someone who i’m not all TOO close with but do know made me turn my butt around and go to the gym anyway, even if it was only for ten minutes at this point.

just means i gotta go extra long tomorrow and work twice as hard!

o…m…g… dude, i did these kickboxing exercises at the gym today and it feels like someone is kicking me in the butt every time i take a step! this is awesome!!

on an unhappy note, i teasingly said to johnny, “aren’t you glad i’m going to the gym so when we go to the beach this summer people don’t say ‘who’s that dude with the pet whale?’ and he said ‘a little’.” PFT!! PFFFFFFT! w/e w/e w/e, he’ll be sad when i go to the beach and people say, “look at that hot chick with the toothpick!” hah take that JJ! mwah!

love you all!