stop caring what others think of me

I need to stop. I try so hard every day to look my best. Do things so others will accept me. Some people are just naturally beautiful and dont need time to perfect how they look. I try to look so good everyday and do things that look good and all i get is shot down with mean and rude comments. I try so hard every single day and i just dont measure up to peoples standards. I just feel not good enough for people. I want to wake up and not try so hard and walk into my life and not care if people say something or whisper. I want to just brush them off and still be happy and smile. I want to hear their rude gestures and comments and just smile at them and not feel ugly and feel the need to rush to a mirror. I want to hear their mean words and just grin at them and say thank you.