figure out if I want to have children

Over the past couple of months, I have had some strange new thoughts about how raising a kid is one a way to make a difference in the world. Maybe it’s just a selfish way to leave your own mark. But the notion of starting a family has been slightly more appealing as of late. I’m still on the fence, I guess. Children are alright but babies are trouble.

Met a very cool 2 1/2 year old recently with a very cool personality. The fact that she’s potty trained already probably helped win me over, too.

Recently read ‘The Tipping Point’ by Malcolm Gladwell, in which he discusses the strange results of a 1970s study that indicated that adopted children are no more similar “in intellectual ability and certain aspects of personality” to their adoptive parents, who’d raised them for 16 years by the time of this testing, than to any two strangers chosen at random. Thought this idea was strange and slightly chilling.

I guess the idea’s growing on me but I’m still scared of turning into my mother and raising an ungrateful kid like me (or my sister).

My mom told me last weekend that she didn’t even think about having kids until she was 28. So maybe it’s just that I’m not ready yet.

I started thinking more about (eventual) adoption last week. I mean, I know we’d have beautiful, gigantic (and probably fat) children, but the whole birth process really turns me off or freaks me out or something, plus there’s the overpopulation of the planet thing.

I really don’t like babies, but I feel like if I didn’t have a family at some point in my life I might be missing out on something.

Who am I kidding, any kid I raise would probably be crazy…