let go

but this time its a positive event!

i waited in cold cold wind after what felt like a very long day at work, watched the sun set, chatted with an irish o/t gal, got some good advice about searching for any living relatives… and before i knew it, i wasn’t even angry about the bus being so late! without my ipod, no less!

could it be true, could i have let go of my bitterness toward the buses?

some days i’m very easily irritated.
some days i’m more inclined to laugh it off or let things slide.

mindfulness can change my hard days if i really try.

can hurt your heart :(

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i hold grudges. not for very long, but yes i fall victim to this, when i am wronged. i’m not talking about i-got-cut-off-on-the-highway type of issues. i’m talkin about the irresponsibility and self-righteousness that apparently comes naturally to some people who cross my path.

what gives a person the idea that they are entitled to YOUR belongings just because they like them? or that they can only do nice things for you as a “best friend” when it is convenient for them? honestly, i don’t feel that i ask for much from people. but there are certain expectations (such as: ASK if you want to BORROW, listen to my day for once if you KNOW all you ever do is endlessly bitch about yours, and follow through on your end of the bargain – or try to compensate if no longer possible).

i really could use this space to type out the exact scenarios that have been taking place in my life recently. these events revolve around the same person. but INSTEAD i’m using this space to try and heal. LET GO – that is what i’m trying to accomplish with this entry.