Get over my Arachnophobia

it’s a great idea .. but does it make sense that i don’t even want to do the course for fear of getting over my fear? i’m scared of even being a person that is ok with picking a spider up in their hands. i often have that dream when there is a big fat scary spider sitting on top of the big red button that will detonate the bomb that is going to destroy the world. everytime i wake up devastated that there is nothing that i can do but let them explode into smitherines. lucky for me the course has already run this year.