speak my mind

I’m in a backpackers and have been talking to people about all kinds of things. It’s been years since I just said what I thought. And then yesterday I was saying what U wanted to say, telling people what I prefer doing and even had a debate/discussion about Marx and CHinese communism. I really shared my point of view. ONe point for the good guys!

I spent some time today trying to get to the heart of my beliefs that drive this inablity to speak my mind at work. I think that I understand that better now. So I’m going to spend time working on why I run away from confrontation. I want to get really good at giving feedback to others in a way that is compassionate and fair, while being true to my perspective & opinions and to really support my personal boundaries. So that’s the desire. Now how do I get it? Firstly,one of my beliefs is that I don’t clearly express what I think and feel. I want to join a public speaking club so that I can feel sure about my ability to speak my mind. So that’s the next big step. Until then I’m just going to keep doing my best at this goal.

This is going to make a massive change in my ife. I simply don’t want to be stuck in my own head anymore. I want to contribute. I want to value my contribution to the world and see my thoughts and words move things, people, events. Something! Anything!