stop being so insecure

I started questioning him about them and he just starts getting very defensive. I am concerned and i want to know everything and what he is doing. I’m his wife and i doubt he wants me going behind his back doing something. And if he says he doesnt care what i do, then he really doesnt love me. Right? he finally told me to stay the fuck out of his buisness, until he realized that i was the one buying him a bowflex. now he wants to play nice. BULL SHIT!

I dont know if this is an insecurity, but i guess it is beacuse of the lies….. No one will even understand this except me….. but i love my husband and i know he loves me, he just has a problem with keeping things from me and it hurts me and he just thinks im a big baby because i get upset over something that he thinks is no big deal! Makes no sense right? well, i found out he uses steroids and well, i was pissed, more so because he didn’t have the decency to tell me! After the big fight about it, i tried to be fair by telling him it was ok as long as i knew all about it (ex. what kinds, when he takes them, how often, etc….) i do worry about him…. its illegal plus its dangerous. we were doing fine for a while until i just caught him lying/hiding all of it from me again. If im supposed to be so important to him, why does he treat me this way? i hope that someone could and would comment on this. please.