I know I have written so many entries here, so many ups and downs, and I cannot even think of much positive things right now concerning this goal. I have developped a rather bad addiction for a certain kind of sweets. Whenever I go shopping nowadays, it is hard for me NOT to go straight into the sweets part of the shop, grab them, and take them with me. Okay, I pay for them (I mention this since the last sentence sounds like I’d be shoplifting …). ANYWAYS, it is so
- hard for me to get out of this.
When I did the same thing yesterday, a thought/memory crossed my mind. It was so easy for me (or, rather easy!) to quit smoking. I also had no problems with quitting to take drugs after all … But when I quit smoking, I wasn’t on a diet, so food became also some kind of “substitute drug”. The worst kind there is …
I am not a lazy person, but with that kind of behaviour, I don’t get anywhere – no matter how much I work out. Actually, I should be counting the calories in this mass of sweets and then really WORK OUT for as long as it takes to burn them. Haha. No, really, I don’t know what to do …
I wish I could set a goal like, “Stop eating sweets for [Enter period of time here]”, but I don’t know which one to choose. I know there have been times I was able to go through long, long periods of time without ANY sweets. But those days, I didn’t know the ones I am eating now :(.
So … Okay … I want to promise myself not to eat them for a while. Just like I did with smoking for the first time. How long is enough to at least notice that the craving will decrease?
Also, I want to do more sports :D. As you may have noticed that is not my problem. But, for example, yesterday I danced and I told myself : “You will dance straight for three minutes now!” and I wasn’t able to do that. I gained a lot of weight in the past days/weeks most likely, too.
I really need to pick this goal up again! And then, baby steps … So that there are many kinds of successes :).
Thank you to everybody who read this until now. And sorry for my behaviour. :(