lose weight

Hello :)!

Since I decided this week to only use the balance once a week. I chose Friday as the holy day to use it, so today I weighed myself (?) again.

My current weight is about 85 kilos. I am really, really proud of myself – once again. (To remind you : I started with almost 100 kilos.) I still have physical education lessons (we started playing ping pong last week …), and our relief day is every Tuesday now.

I hope you all are doing fine at reaching your goals :). Greetings to everybody reading this, by the way!

I wrote a blogger entry about the diet that I am doing :). If you have ANY questions, don’t hesitate to ask … I hope my English was good enough to explain everything (I guess it most likely wasn’t …)!

Anyways, here’s the link :

Weight loss entry – Distorted Face

Hello :)!

So I have been on this diet for almost two months now (I started on May the 11th), and my current weight is below 90 kilos. Actually, it has been that for a few days already, and I am incredibly happy about this achievement. I know it will be a stony way until I reach my target weight, but I am already really proud that I have been this disciplined so far :D.

The fun part about this diet is that there are so many things to eat, and often, you are allowed to eat as much as you want from these meals. Also, the fairytale saying eating “light products” and the like is healthy and should be done if you want to lose weight has turned out to be completely wrong. Okay, I knew this before, but when I see people buying these products I cannot hold back the grinning. For example, when you want to eat a slice of bread with cheese, the latter has to have a certain percentage of fat, or better even above this. Why? Because then you aren’t eating carbs with proteins. That’d be the short version … Same goes for the fairytale that one shouldn’t eat after a certain time of the day. It depends on WHAT you eat after all; I have two warm meals every day, and I am still losing weight.

Oh, and we even ate cake and muffins during the past weeks, and I still lost weight, too.

ANYWAYS. Hope everyone is doing great so far, really!! :D Please don’t be too harsh to yourselves, too.

After all the wonderful times I had been distracted from doing a real diet, I now started another diet again. It was 17 days ago, and during this time, I lost almost 8 kilos. I started with 99.1 kilos, which is the highest weight I have EVER had.

I don’t really want to write down here what my current weight is, though; I am too scared that this would lead to … something. Haha.

I can tell you that it is the WakeUp diet again, though. :) And even though I didn’t completely stick to it, it was good for me, and it still is of course. Unfortunately, the diet still hasn’t been translated to English or something; I am sure they’d have much success also abroad and whatnot.

But whatever. I am back! YAY~!! :D

Aaand hello and welcome again!!

After many ups and downs, I decided (once again?) that it couldn’t go on the way it used to be, and so far I have been quite disciplined, which I think is pretty good.

Since last week I lost about two kilos :). I know it is not much, and I know it is still a long way to go, but at least the motivation I got from friends and videos and especially traineo since recently REALLY helped me a lot. Those who are meant will certainly know about their awesomeness, and if not : YOU ARE AWESOME :D!!

I tried to drink only “good” stuff. A lot of tea, or orange juice (100% fruit with no sugar added) mixed with water … Or 100% pineapple juice and so on. As for exercises, I took a walk today, and I try to dance a lot more. As for the latter, I am even trying to do a certain – and don’t laugh at me now! – parapara routine :D. I know it must look quite funny, but luckily nobody is watching :P. Except for my cats (poor them!) and my family … And the nosy neighbours. And their children. XDD

Mmh … What else? My meals were mainly soups or potatos with some kind of dip (?). As in sauce-like dip. I also tried to eat fruits on a more regular basis. But also, I couldn’t stay away from bread with cream cheese … I want to change that; I guess I ate them TOO frequently :D. But whatever. But, if I can give you a tip, potatos are really good food to lose weight with, and so is soup. (“Oh dear, how awesome would POTATO SOUP be ;D!!”) Ah, and! I stayed away from sweets. And I tried to have pauses after eating, but it didn’t always work. When being hungry still, I usually either drank something or I ate fruits or tomatoes … Or I ate bread with cream cheese … AHEM.

So … If anyone is on traineo, and would like to be on my contact list, I really would appreciate it if you added me :D. Don’t worry : I usually do not bite …

And if you didn’t notice it until now : I am in a good mood right now :D.

It’s always an “UP” and “DOWN”, and I wonder how long it will be going on this way …

Reason for this entry is that I used the balance today. I still cannot believe how much it showed : Approximately 96 kilos, which means about 212 lbs … I could cry right now, just because of this. But instead, I will write down the things I will change about my lifestyle, so that I will lose weight :

- Only drinks accepted : Tea or Water!!
- No sweets for this week!!
- Go to fitforfun to get a training schedule!!
- After eating, have an appropriate pause afterwards!!

And that was that. I hope it will somehow work out … :( I am really, really frustrated at the moment.

I don’t know how many parts will follow, BUT! I just need to write that down now.

I watched several videos about weight loss today on YouTube. Not videos where there’s still doubt whether they are showing the same people in them, no. It is pretty obvious that they were exactly the same person like in the beginning. I thought this was really inspiring, and I will follow their lead!

All I need now is to put the balance to a certain place where it can stay, so that it won’t show any major differences like it always does according to the place where you put it.

I will start eating healthy again, and I told my mother and my sister to hide the chocolate and so on from me, too. And I will drink more tea. As for sports, I found a great site online offering exercises you can do. The only thing holding me back is that I don’t have all the things you need for these exercises, but maybe I can find something that is similar to them …

I am really excited right now and cannot wait (I even typed “weight” instead of “wait” (stare)) ... I won’t create a food diary anymore, though. Because I don’t want to feel bad while doing the weight loss diet; and when reading how “much” I have eaten, I always feel bad.

Additionally, I will try to be more active when it comes to hobbies and other goals in my life. All I can say now is “TSCHAKKA!”, and thanks for your attention :)!

WE CAN DO IT!!

I don’t know about the weight thing, but at least I made sports every morning … Even when it was raining or very cold outside, I decided to do sports inside the house instead. I guess I haven’t lost anything, but I am starting to feel a little healthier than before. On the first morning, I ran a little through town, but had problems with breathing and so on after about two minutes (or at least it seemed like this), so I walked back. On the next morning, after one minute of doing sports, I already felt like I couldn’t breathe anymore, too. But during the rest of the week, I always added some other sport to it so that I did more every morning … And it felt so good.

I didn’t force myself to do so; I actually think it is fun. I want to continue doing so when I am at home again (we are currently somewhere else …). Either running, or walking, or doing some sports indoors. (nods) I will also start eating healthy again. We will see how far I will get. Dancing would be fun, too, if I had enough space … :D

I also don’t have a balance right now, but I am starting to recover. I also told myself I will look for some people to do sports with when I feel ready :). And maybe also start losing weight with … Would be nice to get to know more people actually. (And I think I will really do so by giving smaller presents to myself after reaching a certain weight again :).)

But what I have done is that I drank more water/tea than before. I hope this will help me reach this goal …

I know it will take various other entries, but since I am almost done with quitting smoking and since I had a look at the person behind the looking glass once again … I feel I need to finally do something against myself feeling so empty and lost and depressed and whatever. Yeah, hooray for my writing style!!

I didn’t really notice why I refused continuing the weight loss diet I have started. Counting calories wasn’t really the best thing to do; instead I will pick up a certain diet idea again. It helped last time, but I was so down when I stopped losing weight for some time, or when I gained weight again … And what especially made me feel down was when our neighbour walked up to me and started talking about how much weight my mum lost (we started on the same day), and how impressed she was of her. I know this is childish, but it makes me sad to think about it …

I know she did good.
I know she deserves respect for it.
I know I am not insufficient.

But in a certain way, I feel like this. I am not even able to use the balance right now; I guess if I did, I would fall backwards and remain unconscious for half an hour.

I hate looking into mirrors. I don’t feel like myself anymore, and I also know when this stopped, but I don’t know where to start my personal therapy (I would only do that for myself, not with some other person …). I need more self-confidence. I want to achieve this goal. I remember the weight I felt best with was 60 kilos, and if I reached that, it would be okay already, but I will still try to get a little lower, so that it wouldn’t be so bad if I ate “unhealthy” again after the weight loss diet.

I hope that the upcoming Austria-holidays will change something. Maybe I will get new ideas for healthy meals, maybe I will find some time to do sports in between. Or in the early mornings … I actually told myself to go walking (fast) or running every morning there, and continue doing so when I am at home again …

Well, I will tell you about the results after the holidays I think.

I created a journal for my way to my dream weight :D. It contains information on what I have eaten and drunk every day, and what kinds of sports I have done and how long.

It can be found here :).