Fall in real love: ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without each other love.

I just broke up with my boyfriend. It was for the best and we’re going to try being friends, but it still hurts.

I don’t think this goal is possible for me. There are too many issues standing between me and anyone else to make it happen. I’m certainly not going to actively seek another relationship. If something comes along, maybe I’ll try it.

But right now I don’t want anything to do with dating, sex, love or anything. Stay away from me. I almost gave up right before I met this past guy and now I have all the more reason to.

I met a guy while volunteering at an orphanage and a homeless shelter. A few days later, he messaged me to ask if I’d go to dinner with him sometime.

So we went out on Saturday night. It was really nice. We went to a palace, a traditional Korean restaurant, a cute tea house, and finally for a walk along the city stream. I wasn’t nervous at all and he was just incredible.

Then I saw him again last night when we both helped the homeless again. We were split into different teams, but afterward he took me out for ice cream. He emailed me later that night once I got home. Unfortunately, we have completely opposite schedules, so we’ll only be able to see each other on the weekends.

Anyway, tonight I can’t stop thinking about him. We haven’t kissed yet. I hope that will happen next time…and maybe more. ;)

I kinda feel like he’s out of my league, but I really hope this will work out for at least a few months.

Is it Friday yet? Haha.

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.Someone to love with my life in their hands.There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own.And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

“You mean she would rather imagine herself relating to an absent person than build relationships with those around her?”

~ the Glass Man in “Amelie”

Wow, that totally describes me! No wonder this goal is so hard to achieve…