Make new friends

Since we started going to church several weeks ago (an interesting open kind of funky church) we’ve met several people. They are so friendly. We’re going to go over to a ‘game night’. Now that I’m actually meeting people, I have the urge to clam up and get back to my solitary ways. I am so contrary.

I am shy, though I can pretend outgoingness wonderfully. I ….hmmmm….it has always been hard for me to make friends, though I am an excellent friend. I want to have a few very good friends. True friends. I want to be there for my friends and have them be there for me. I miss that. Time is a problem, I have work and my own art…..leaves little time for casual socializing. I would love to have a friend who would come over and enjoy time while I paint…or something of the sort. Maybe that’s terrible self centered of me. I just don’t know.