I’m amazed at how much more trusting I am now, than I was even a couple of months ago. I came to Ottawa with that part of me pretty much crippled, and the rebound disastrous relationships I got into once I arrived here only worsened me.
I’m so lucky to be with the guy I’m with now. Dispite my distrust, my anxiety and breakdowns, he stood by me and my faith in people has grown tremendously. I’m not scared to be away from him for fear he’ll find someone better the minute my back is turned.
I still get upset too easily, and I still let things get to me that I should just brush off, and that bothers me. It’s like letting the ones who mistreated me continue to gain victories. But things are so much better for me… I can finally honestly say that I am able to fall in love again.