Stop being so clingy

I just relized that its ok. Sure I’m clingy, but I think i’m insecure so it makes me cling to my bf so much. I think I have to relize that I can be on my own and its ok, but also that when I’m in a relationship I chose it and the other person chose it too. I think maybe just trusting him will help a lot. Why worry about my mistake. What is done is done, now I choose to move on and live my life. He’s part of it right now, but I also have another life to live. So does he. So why be clingy? I chose not to be anymore.

Well, I was doing better, but I sort of failed today. I texted him and asked if he wanted to bake a cake with me and he was like no, but thanks. So I was like ok, so I called him and than I was like “dumb” half way through the rings and he picked up and I was thinking “what should i say?, so I was like I just wanted to tell you that the sweatshirt you gave me to wear might smell like dirt so you might want to wash it and sorry if I pushed you to bake a cake with me. Wow! Stupid, is the only word I can think of. Why did I ask him in the first place and why did I call him afterwards?! Oh, well I guess I can only move on and keep trudging. At least I don’t email him so much anymore. This is harder than I thought.

My bf and I have been going out for 3 monthes now and for the last month I have been working really hard not to be clingy. Well, its working I think. We had a little argument before about him not being affectionate and I’m being to clingy. So we’ve comprimsed and we decided we would both do better. So I have stopped emailing him and texting him every single day. I don’t try to give a hug every moment and hold his hand every second were togather. I have hiddden my phone from myself for awhile and I stay off facebook less so I don’t look at his picture. I just have to stop asking him to do things so much though. If he says he can’t, he can’t do something. But otherwise I think I’m doing great.

The only thing that worries me is that he has become more intamate while I have cooled off a bit. It scares me a bit and I dont’ want him to think that he has to be to affectionate all the time. I still want him to be him. But I think right now were trying to find a happy medium and eventually it will all level off.