Be less needy

I’ve realized that much about being needy is about letting the control go. It is what it is, and what will happen will happen. So letting all that goodness around me percolate lets the neediness go. Much much less needy. And so much happier for that.

Written here, so I can come back and re-read it when I’m being needy and silly.

we all over think things at times
and then we can’t see clearly
we let our emotions take over

... ain’t that the truth, P. Thanks, Lovely, you helped, as you always do.

Remember how I said this ebbs and flows? Boy, is it ever ebbing at the moment. You know when you just should let something go but for some reason, you just can’t? Well, I can’t. And every cell in my body is telling me I need to let one just flow.

Frig.

Amazing how time shifts the feeling of neediness and not. I go through serious moments and periods of emotional and physical neediness. And then time passes, the ebb and flow, moments and periods of satiation, saturation almost. Yet nothing will have changed in my life. Mood swings? Maybe. Or just a simple perception of need.

Maybe I have too much time to think. Or maybe the ocean lives inside of me, and it simply does have its own ebb and flow. The tides.

with my neediness these days. I have worked very, very hard with overcoming my overwhelmingness of other people with my neediness. But sometimes, just sometimes, I get these moments where all my hard work, perspective, balance and self-control vanishes. Nothing specifically happens to prompt this, but there is it: the big weight of neediness. And goddamnit I work hard at making it go away, or simply with dealing with it. I just wish I was less needy as a person, that I was less intense and overall, less. Because being needy sucks.