be more spontaneous

Last night I spontaneously went to a movie – not my suggestion, of course, but I still went and did something without plannig it out in advance. Saw Little Miss Sunshine, which was hilarious but more sad funny than I had expected. I just love Greg Kinnear and of course I always love to see Daily Show alums, especially Steve Carrell. Anyway, a small step towards spontaneity. Of course, my self-congratulatory feeling is somewhat muted by the fact that I don’t really feel like I would have done it if not for the fact that my boyfriend’s sister is currently living with us and I feel some small degree of pressure not to be so boring. Why is it that I am content to be boring for myself and my boyfriend but not for people I know less well?

It is an unfortunate but true fact that I have become a stick in the mud. For various reasons, I have developed a bit of a social avoidance problem and I am constantly avoiding doing things or only doing things when I have planned them out in advance. I guard my time very jealously and when someone proposes something that I hadn’t planned, I tend to view it as an infringement on my time, instead of an opportunity to do something fun with people I like. I would like to change this about myself.