stay smoke-free

I haven’t had a single cigarette in the 7 months since I last wrote an entry about this. Granted, I’ve been pregnant for 5 months, and then I’d keep away from cigarettes anyway. I’ll tick off this goal next new years – then I’ve also kept away after my pregnancy.

This goal has been a head-ache since this summer when my party smoking turned to parties every day – and I realised that I should start smoking without alcohol to avoid turning into an alcoholic. So basically I started again. And now I quit on the 1st of november – and I’ve been to two parties that led me to think that smoking was ok at parties. I did actually stay away from daily smoking for 8 months last year. But I have to stop this filthy habit of smoking a couple of times a month. It makes me sick. Physically. I have to remember that. Please let me remember that next time I think smoking is a good idea.

Its been two months since I quit smoking – but I still have the occasional smoke at parties – so I’m acutally smoking a couple of cigarettes every week. It’s really stupid – at first I didn’t worry about it, since the rest of quitting smoking came along so easily. Now I don’t understand why it’s so hard to stay away from the party smoking. I can’t stay at home – so how do I kick this filthy habit?