find a job i love

I still have to work half a day at a job I don’t enjoy, but it’s a small price to have my second half of the day be something I look forward to from the minute I wake up in morning. In my previous (political) line of work I felt expendible, like I wasn’t doing anything that any of the other thousands of degenerates in my field couldn’t do if given the opportunity. Sure, it took instinct, insight, intelligence and logic, but there’s only so much you can do to separate yourself from the rest, aside from crawling so far up someone’s asshole to secure a position for yourself that you can’t even remember why you even bothered to live in the world in the first place.
This new job doesn’t make me much money. There’s no glamour or special perks or ego stroking envolved. Instead of being impressed by who I work with, people are now a little frightened. I love my new job.
Every day I visit kids, in their homes (which are often scary), who are on probation and are repeat offenders. I get to talk to them and their parents, hang out with them, and do assessments to figure out the best form of intervention to keep them out of trouble and rehabilitate their lives- whether it’s by getting them into drug treatment, a psych eval, or helping them get a job and learn life skills- I get to help kids who have never seen the word “help” demonstrated before in their lives.
I can’t help all of them. It’s only been 3 weeks, and I’ve already had one kid who I’m worried will just never, regardless of the intervention done, be able to keep himself from being incarcerated. I know I can’t save the world. But I’ve got others who, with a little guidance, patience and support, can get and stay on the right track to being a productive individual who can take care of themselves. I go home every day excited about whatever small progress was made that day and eager to go back the next. I love my job.

I think the interview today went well, but of course you can never tell. Just have to cross my fingers and follow up in a few days…

So I took a job I’m not thrilled about in order to have one I want. Just put myself back into the political cult to be able to feed the political junkie addiction, pay the bills and please everyone who wanted me to do it. At least my bills will get paid.
The upside is that it is less intensive than the political work I’m used to and will allow me to (hopefully) manage a part time job simultaneously. I have an interview Friday for a position working with kids on probation, which I am really excited about. I would love to be able to help kids get back on track. Hopefully this will go well!