find ways to stop feeling down

This goal is a toughy, last week I was down in the dumps. Since around probably Monday or Tuesday of this week, I’ve been happy, no infact, I’ve been in a really good mood and I haven’t been sure on the cause of this as nothing new or good is going on in my life, its no different to the previous week so what is it?

I’ve been putting it down to a mixture of good weather and the much healthier diet i’ve been on rather than just lots of junk food (I still eat junk food, just no where near as often) but then tonight I get moody and pissed off but why? I’ve spent the day at the beach with some friends, and its been such a warm sunny day too so why the sudden change in mood? it’s weird how moods can change in such a way.

shrugs

I have my problems, like everyone does, some pretty big important stuff, some small, some major life changing decisions and some small daily ones, a lot of which that most people don’t really need to ever think about or face. I’m happy for the most part, I have a few friends I tend to be close to (even if I do frequently pull myself away from them) my life pretty much does seem to be going in the right direction and I have a stable job, as much as I’ve become to hate it but it provides me with what i need.

I tend to be ok, but I can just suddenly become sad be it due to thinking too much or some stupid comment made at me in public/work and once it happens, I tend to unhappy and withdrawn for a while lasting from anywhere a day to a week, sometimes a little more. The problem also being it can happen frequently and I need to find ways to cope with them or to get me out of them rather than being miserable for a week.

So why the downers? It all boils down to one thing, being transgendered so if its not me being critical and judging myself over how I look, its someone in public staring or making comments or a customer in work making some stupid comments. Maybe one day all that will go away but for now I just have to cope with it which sometimes I do well, other times I don’t.

I just need to find better ways to cope and to be happy.