overcome my fears

my fears suck and get in the way. tonight was supposed to be the night of work’s christmas party.

my friend came over, we’d done our hair & makeup, put our dresses and little shoes on and were just about ready to leave… I took one look in the mirror and burst into tears. Needless to say we didn’t go.

It’s now been a year and three months since I last entered a pub, I want to go, I’d love to be able to spend time with my friends in some pub/club for a few drinks but I just can’t do it, I can’t seem to even get myself to go to one that’s been booked for a private do with only people I know being there :(

My friend hopes to get me to one tomorrow… probably not gonna happen.

I’ve focused around pubs but it’s any social environment really.

I’ve developed some pretty weird fears over the past year and maybe they’re stupid or not very big but they are to me.

I’ve become too scared to go to the hair dressers, use public toilets, use store changing rooms, go out clubbing, basically anywhere that makes me feel exposed or is a social thing.

I haven’t been on a night out in over a year now and I miss having nights out with my friends, I guess its not a biggy. The public toilets thing is a huge one especially while at work, then theres the changing room thing… the amount of times I’ve had to bring clothes back or just gave them to a friend its unreal.

If I can overcome just some of these, mainly the important ones I’d be thrilled