Run for more than 15 mins straight

This has not been one of my most successful goals. I have found it really difficult. I think that this goal is not just about running on a treadmill but there are I am sure, deep fears and emotional issues surrounding it. I think there was maybe 1 week in which I was on the tready every morning, and I felt fantastic…felt like I was really achieving things. But, all it took was one bad eating day and it was all over red rover. What is the point in getting up at 5am to walk/run if I am going to ruin it by eating bad food. I am not a person that is good at compromise, it is either all or nothing, and well you guessed it, it is nothing at the moment. I do feel that I have had more energy the past couple of days so I am contemplating the idea of getting up tomorrow at 5am and starting again. I just feel so guilty that not only do I have a treadmill which gathers dust, but a gym membership that is not being used. I am so ashamed to go back to the gym, I feel like a fish out of water there. Everyone just looks like they have come from a fashion shoot and here I am in my clothes which feel so tight that I am suffocating – not literally. Arrrgh….Need to get my head round this. I feel so sad because everyday I beat myself up and I am not getting any fitter.

Since getting the tready, I have been on it twice, for roughly 15-20mins with 6mins running time (not at all once though). I am seriously unfit, but I know that it won’t be for long. :)

I got a treadmill – I am so happy! I managed to pick it up out of the local newspaper. It goes up to 16km, 15% incline, big computer screen etc….and less than a third of what the original owner paid for it. So, that having been said I have roughly a month to be able to run 15mins straight. That should be achievable??? I suppose my plan of attack is to do a walk/run sequence to begin with….Maybe do 5 mins walking with 2 mins running? and then increase the running sections every couple of days?? I will assess regularly.

Okay, may have solved the freaking out issue of running on the streets. I might be able to get a treadmill from my partner’s mum’s friend’s daughter. haha. Apparently she bought this fancy treadmill and paid a fair bit for it but it just sits there being unused. With any luck, and I am really putting it out there into the universe that she will decide to sell it to me. Having a treadmill will definatly motivate me to at least run for a couple of mins as it is just not happening at the moment. Time is a ticking….and I really don’t want to do bootcamp.

Hmmm, I should be starting this by now considering I am really unfit. I just hate the idea of running on my own, I get scared especially with all the attacks that have been happening to women over the past year. Eeek. I have to get my head round this!

I am a little worried about this goal considering I have probably been to the gym about 4 times in the past 6 months, and it was only to keep the gym people from stalking me. I really do think that 3 phone messages and 1 email was a little over the top, but maybe that was just my guilt kicking in. haha. Anyway, this is a goal I have been trying to conquer for about a year and a half….the last time I was able to run for 15 mins on the treadmill. I remember that it felt so good, and I want to feel that again – to feel fit, strong and enthused about my body. Okay, I think I have set a realistic time frame – 2 months, so in theory it should all go to plan and there will be no boot camp for me, which if I am honest sounds pretty scary and will no doubt hurt heaps if I am still at my current fitness level. haha. So, today will be my action plan day.
Cheers :)