discover and refine my talents

I’m really quite crafty! It started with knitting, then crocheting. Now I’m teaching myself to sew. I do know how to embroider a bit, so I’m well on my way to becoming quite the fiber artiste.

1. I have a way with words. I’ve been told I’m a good communicator. I’ve always been intrigued by languages and books.

2. I’m a really good cook.

3. I learn quickly. This is convenient when there’s a lot you still don’t know.

Many of my talents I’m already aware of, and I need to refine. But what if I have something I haven’t yet discovered? At my age can I still find something amazing within myself? I was a precocious child; the downside is that as you get older, it takes more and more to be amazing, and you start to feel like a failure, in my experience. I have been told that I expect too much of myself while underestimating myself at the same time. It’s a brutal cycle, and has caused me a good bit of pain. When I’m dissapointed in myself (frequently), I tend to shut down and fall into a dark hole of lethargy and depression. I need to get away from this, but I don’t know how.