give up smoking

I’ve got an inhalator, some days i haven’t used it. I hope i manage to stay stopped. It’s a pity i like smoking.

And i’m hardly even thinking about smoking. I feel i have mostly quit smoking. I had a few a couple of weeks ago on a night out with my smoking best mate but apart from that i am not smoking.

Go me!

Had a very stressful day on tuesday but i still didn’t smoke, woo! Think i might have cracked it. Haven’t smoked for a weeks now.

I haven’t smoked at all today or yesterday. I’m feeling strong, like i can do this. My big problem is spending time with smokers. Will have to avoid them for a bit.

I haven’t smoked anything since friday. Thats pretty good.

I had been doing really well with this goal until just now. I’ve had a fag cos i’ve come home from work to find about 20 odd wasps in my living room. I’m guessing i’ve got a wasps nest. Just my luck!

Unfortunately in times of stress i need to smoke.

... since sunday!

I’m doing good!

Well i managed the walk to and from work but didn’t quite manage to not smoke the rest of yesterday.

Someone’s a bad influence on me.

I’m giving up again today though.

This week i haven’t smoked anything at all on monday, tuesday and wednesday.

Today’s going to be the difficult one. I’m working this aft and quite like a smoke on the way from work back to the car. And then tonight the kids are at their dads and my most smoking friend’s coming over so i’m really going to have to give it some will power.

I used to smoke. I stopped when i found out i was pregnant with my eldest daughter. And i really stopped. I probably had the odd one from time to time, on occasional nights out for example, but mostly i didn’t smoke.

When my girls’ dad left when i was 6 months pregnant with the second i smoked occasionally when i felt really stressed or whatever. And i haven’t stopped smoking occasionally since then. I mostly do it as an emotional reaction i think. I thought it was a reaction to seeing the ex and usually being annoyed or wound up by him. I dont, usually, smoke when i’ve got the kids but i do when i dont have the kids.

And i’m fed up with it. It’s so bad for you(me) and its so important. So i’m stopping, starting yesterday. So far so good.