Get healthy

with my mom was great. We spent 90% of the time in the produce section and I’ve been able to convince her to try a few more veg dishes.
Happy with the choices in that I got lots of fruits and veg for not alot of money in total.

Going to make a couple healthy dinners this week.

Trying to focus on fruits and veg. Although I did eat a disgusting hot pocket that one of the kids left. Gross!

Where have I been? This is the EXACT same goal I had nearly 5 years ago! I’m no more healthy now than I was then…In fact, I’ve gained weight.
I now weigh almost 250 pounds! That is absolutely ridiculous.

I think that I’ve been “asleep” inside my head for a while and just totally oblivious to what the hell has been going on with me.

Finally reached a place a few months ago where I decided life in general was not good. I’m not in a good place in many areas of my life, so I decided to start recovery.

It’s an odd process to do recovery when you are not a user or addicted to substance abuse, but it’s one of the best things I’ve ever done for myself.

Starting to see how my spiritual life is related to my emotional and physical life as well as my general overall sense of well being.
Have started doing a 12 step program and for the first time ever, I’m talking about my weight problems in front of other people in a significant way. Not hiding things any more.

It’s had an amazing effect on my life. Have become a lot more aware of what is happening and the changes I can make to recover from the hurts, habits and hangups.

Education:

This freaks me out completely!
I get so overwhelmed thinking about nutrition and healthy eating. It seems so complicated and so incredibly difficult to keep track of. It doesn’t seem like I will ever be able to get a handle on all the thoughts out there.

So, what I’m going to do first is read “You on a Diet” because that’s what my doctor recommended.
Then I’ll look at the Nutrition Almanac book that J recommended.

So, for the next month…I’m going to concentrate on just learning as much as I can about how to read labels, knowing how much I should weigh, how much BMI is ok, how many carbs, how many calories etc…learning some of the values of certain foods and how they react to my PCOS.
What are good portion sizes? and find a bit of a routine about when to eat…
Want to explore the GI diets too. Think that may be the way that I need to eat…

One month is not that scary…

So, here goes…

tonight had an IM conversation with a good friend who is a total health nut about loosing weight. He said he could help me figure out a plan if I was interested.
I’ll be seeing him next week and then again the week after when I go on a couple trips out of town. So….we’re going to talk about it then and set up a plan.

Probably need to get some people here in town involved in helping me with this too.

Ugh! and Yay!

Have been doing a better job of being aware when I am eating. Realized during my morning pages, that I eat unconsciously sometimes. I’m alot more intentional with almost every other area of my life.
Have been eating more regularly and am making wiser choices. I also have noticed I don’t feel that kind of “hunger” that I wasn’t sure how to fill. Not sure the reason for that. did have an interesting prayer time and also some things that have been resolved in my life lately.
Finally starting to take action to make the kind of life I’ve wanted and I think that effects my physical health as well as mental health.

I’ve been looking at old photographs of myself. I’ve always thought of myself as extremely heavy, but when I look at the photos, that’s just not true.
I went through a phase when I was about 10 or so where I was heavy, but really, I wasn’t THAT heavy.
I just this second realized my mom probably decided to coach our softball team because the doc told her I was obese at 10. That was a pretty traumatic day. Maybe that was her way of getting me to be more active. hmmmm, never thought of that.
Think that’s around the same time we started swimming so much too.

Now, I truly am overweight. I’m doing ok with my BP, but my cholestoral is up a bit (241) other stuff is good, I’m pretty healthy considering I’m around 100 pounds overweight right now.

I’m not exercising and what I’m realizing the last few days is I have NO concept of what my body really looks like. Need more mirrors in this house. Hate the ones we have cause they really only show you the top 1/2 of yourself.

Have a 23 yr old friend that had a heart attack this week. He’s not that overweight at all…but he eats junk. I eat junk…need to work on getting healthier all around.

I’m mentally very healthy, emotionally more healthy than I’ve been in about 20 years, spiritually….um..thinking I’m pretty close to being settled on a direction. Now it’s time to really come to grips with my physical health. Need a plan…

What??

Got my lab results and things were good except my cholestoral which was 241. The doc said to get on meds for a while. Thinking I’ll probably just do that until I can get it to come down.

Also need a measles shot. (uggggh)

today and had a chat about weight loss and nutrition. She suggested reading “You on a Diet” so that’s what I’m gonna do.

One of the best things was that I ended up not needed blood pressure meds! Yay!!

Last time I was there (nearly 3 years ago) yikes! She had told me I needed to get on BP meds but I told her I did not want to do that. I was quite surprised to find out I really didn’t need any!

Next is to do the lab work tomorrow to see where my Chol. and everything else is.

Committed to going back in 3 months for checkup. That that will help me. She said I could even come in once a month if that would help. Maybe I’ll do that….

But at least every 3 months…Step in the right direction!!!!

to start using these goals again and to try to build an “outline” form with them. So…my over arching goal here is to Get Fit…the first steps in that are join weight watchers and make appointments with my GP and dentist. Already have an eye appointment so that’s good.

I know there’s some tests I need to take and some meds I need to be on. I’ve been blowing those off and that’s not good.
I really don’t take very good care of my physical self.

Adding exercise to this mix will be the hardest I think.

That will be my next big category I think