I spoke to a room full of people, was visibly nervous, was present with that AND with the people in the room, and got through it. Some folks even reflected that they were moved by the modeling of being scared & standing there & doing it anyway. Folks were aware I was nervous, but not uncomfortable in my discomfort. I am happy for that…
I am consistently stepping out of my comfort zone & this year has been a great example thus far—
+ allowing myself to participate in ritual (any kind of ritual) b/c of my previously held beliefs around the lack of meaning… challenging who I think I am. (I always described myself as one who doesn’t do ritual… now I’m not so sure)
+ living on the streets for a few days
+ shaving my head
+ allowing myself to experience life w/ a specific list of dietary restrictions—(I am a person who eats /everything/, I am healthy)
+ playing with children (I am a person who does not like children)
+ some other things that I’d prefer /not/ to share b/c it feels like ‘bragging’ or trying to get credit for them—it seems to cheepen the experience .
I’m looking for things I believe are TRUE about me, & then doing the opposite. This has been amazingly, refreshingly liberating!
I danced in the middle of a restaurant with friends, though the rhythm was off, & the timing was wrong, I did it…
ah, my comfort zone is growing. love fills the edges…
This year (& the last-bit of last year) was completely about me finding ways to step out of my comfort zone.
Since this has been my focus, I’ve been feeling HIGH!!
So here we are! I’m leading a 6-month program, taking an improv class, inviting people to do stuff with me without even really taking much stock of second-guessing if they’d be up for it, SHARING w/ people how I feel when I am with them (good & bad)—[This part has been AWESOME b/c I feel more connected to everybody as a result… folks who used to irritate me dont now…]
I’m looking to my friends to help me find & push my edges!