I’m a thinker. A crazy thinker, especially when I have the extra time to dwell on things. The more I think, it leads to some point where I am angry, and I am mad at myself because I let my thoughts get to that point. It’s like my head is unstoppable, but then I realized something really important. I AM the one who controls my mind, I am the one who dwells on these things, I am who continuously ponders at all my little life situations and makes them into bigger things than they really are. I often live in the past, and bring up bitter details of my life, and becomes this slippery slope until I’m so angry I am living more in my thoughts than in reality. So I ask all of you thinkers out there, why live your life in your thoughts when you can actually LIVE your life?
Every time I start thinking of something, I remind myself it is my choice to go down this path. I’ve noticed I’ve stopped myself at times, and it’s working slowly but steadily. You have to be consciously aware of yourself. And most of all, if you’re an introvert, a passive person who keeps everything inside, you must have outlets to let it out. Whether its poetry, writing, music, sports, or just regular exercising, something to tell that mind I’m in control, not you.
Nothing in life comes easy, so it’s going to be hard. But if you want to make changes in yourself, you have to put the work into it.
