stop obsessing about my weight

It is 190.5 at the home scale. Still a shocking number but not 200. I had a serious conversation with my husband who is also too heavy. We are going to change our eating.

I SAID I WOULD NEVER LET THIS HAPPEN. WELL IT HAS HAPPENED! FACK! FACK! FACK! IS IT TIME FOR LIPO?
FACK!

This is going in full force today. While at the gym (congrats to me for going) I saw and felt my rolls. It was not a pretty sight. I don’t want to accept that this is my new weight. I have been listening to the iAmplify hypnosis podcast about getting ready for weight loss and I think it is helping me not want junk foods. I did get a call from Creative Nutrition today. Heewon, my irritating nutritionist, left their practice, so I would be seeing Julie who is the head of Creative Nutrition. I don’t want to buy any more supplements and that Liver Flush / Detox tasted like crap. I am not sure what I am going to do. It’s really tearing me up. It is so much energy wasted. I hope writing or thinking about it will lead to something changing. This goes with goal #1, love myself.

Still obsessing over weight. I tried on pants today and they did not fit. I have had to go up a size. I do not want to denigrate myself for this but it sure is discouraging.

I am thinking about doing a diet with a lot of structure like maybe Fresh Dining again.