Study something I will really enjoy

and why we just don’t have somebody who would take decisions instead of us.But no- this is our own right-to take decisions for our life. Well, after my last entry, I just graduated (FINALLY!) this July from University, and as I started job last December I am pretty much into my job now and I am happy with what I am doing(Customer Delivery Manager- I work with people, I built small web sites for different promotions, sometimes QA- I adore finding other people’s mistakes :), etc.)...and tomorrow is the BIG DAY of Decision for Master Degree. I thought..I hoped it would be something I would enjoyed..and I decided I’d like to graduate in Information Security, however as this was a field different from what I graduated in Bachelor Degree(Applied Linguistics), I would have to study one additional year and there was a small chance to be collected a group of people that want to take a class in this major being another field. I just got a confirmation that there aren’t enough people for this major so I would have a chance to start studying something else- Multimedia and Graphics….why everything sounds soo famiiar to me, and why the hell..I never can study whatever I’d like to..I DON’T WANT to study Multimedia and Graphics because I know who would be my lecturers and they aren’t the greatest people I’d have something to learn from, plus this major will take me 3 years and enough money(probably thrown in vain), as I will continue doing my job and learning Photoshop,CSS, design, etc. by myself like I was doing up to now…so should I start studying something that will rob my freetime for stufying stupid materials I don’t need only to have a Master degree, or rather enjoy my free time and just let things go like they were last few months..GRRRRR…I hate decisions…

I have one more year and a half till I finish my Bachelor degree . However I have rather not enjoy studying it. First I wanted to study Italian Philology and to become translator however since I didn’t succeed to enter and now I wouldn’t like living at Sofia at all (Sofia University is the only place where one can study Italian Philology in Bulgaria)- I gave up. Also I had a possibility to study Computer Sciences as I really like doing something on computer , it doesn’t matter if it is computer animation, something related to graphics, photos, or just make some document or e-book.However when I had to decide whether to study Linguistics or Computer Sciences, I had to make a decision within a night(it was really awful:( and I decided to study Linguistics as my boyfriend was going to study Computer Sciences too and he insisted we shall not be the same major:(But as the years past I am more sure I didn’t take the right decision as I don’t really enjoy what I am studying and it ’s really important to me.Someone will say “Well, what’s the matter? You will have a job and thats all” But it is important for me to receive pleasure of what I do, e.g. I can’t immagine how one can work a job he don’t like, I suppose that one have to inspire of what he is doing so just can continue doing it… So,now I will obtain only a Bachelor degree and then I can study MA which could be something different .Something that I will enjoy maybe…