stop popping my knuckles

attempting this again. this time it’s my new year’s resolution. i have to do this.
so yesterday i started simple. only pop the ones that didn’t require force behind it. as simple as it sounds, it was killing me.
today i’m doing it again, working slowly because when i quit cold turkey last time it made it impossible to stop for me.

this might be literally the hardest thing i’ve tried to do. it’s like second nature to me, so on one side i feel i shouldn’t have to stop this.
but then again, i’ve done a lot of damage to my hands doing this, and i know it’s for the best if i stopped all together.
you know how there’s gloves for babies to stop them from biting there nails at night? i wish they came up with something like that for popping knuckles…

yeah…i’m definitely not ready to cross this off my list of things accomplished…
today i had my first day off school and work, i had nothing to do almost all day. so there i was popping away. :( not extreme like i use to by all means, but enough to say it was a little too much.
oh well, another day i guess…

i’m almost ready to say i beat this one. i still do it sometimes, but only when i don’t think about it or i feel it bother me.
i don’t think about it so much anymore. almost not at all.
i’m really proud of myself. i always thought i could never pull it off but i think am doing really well.

i only thought about doing it a couple of times today, which believe it or not is a miracle for me. i actually went to bed last night thinking about it over and over, and then i get up and it isn’t so bad.
i did pop my pinky and index finger and both of them after i did it they hurt. so now it’s becoming a must for me. i have to stop it, and so far it’s not so bad…
yet…
when i get stressed i pop like crazy, and on monday i have my final for one of my classes…ugh.

so instead of initial plan i just didn’t do it…all day…
i thought about it constantly. as i started to do it, i’d stop and try to think of something else.
until my finger started to hurt. and i didn’t know if i was making myself believe it hurt or it actually hurt by not popping it all the time.
so i popped my ring finger.
and you know what?
it made it feel better for about a minute.
i’m pretty proud of myself, but i definitely think this will be an ongoing thing for a while…

well…that went okay…better than i thought anyway…
i’m crazy with popping. my neck, shoulders, knees, ankles, it’s disgusting and to be honest, i don’t mind at all if you agree.
so today was day 1 of attempting to stop it all together. go cold turkey.
didn’t do that.
i noticed sometimes i do it without even realizing i did. i’ll be reading something and POP or watching tv and POP…
i think i’m going to have to take baby steps since i’m so nuts. maybe first no pinky popping, then onto the ring finger and so on.
tomorrow i think i’ll try that and see how it goes.