I want to be a better human being

I find myself patiently listening even on those topics which bore me to the core, i was a good listener before but i have improved a lot since i took up this goal.

I can see changes in my relatives who have started looking forward to my advice or a helping hand.

As the old one goes ‘Charity begins at…’ so its a satisfying progress.

But lot remains.

I am gettin forward and even positively nudgeding myself to get involved in neighbourhood activities, but sometimes all the trying comes to a halt when such incidents occur but only for a fraction of second cause this goal of mine is a lifetime achievement which benefits to and fro.

{ the incident- one of my neighbours is not fond of me at all and we never come across but during one of the meets i smiled and coaxed myself to wish her (for the second time) but all i got back for a 1 minute smile of mine was a blank stern face and no greetings of course…still i managed to not let my smile vanish}

Guess this is a part of the self refinement process..

It seems to be working well and its benefitting all who come in contact with me, actually i have started loving myself more in this process which helps me to be even better.

I am definitely more confident,am now more outgoing in a positive way, i try to reach out and help people and i have started believing more in people and my first impression or expression towards them is not cold..

Thank God for that…

Whew how unsocial i was

we definitely need to give benefits of doubt to our evergrowing circle of humans..

We would need it too at times in reciprocation…

As i tread on my path of being better i have found that becoming a better human being is inversely proportional to expectations and that makes lesser expectations directly proportional to happiness and happiness keeps on multiplying in both scenarios…

I am seeing more positive confidence with this onging lifetime goal of mine.

Yes.. this will be a lifetime goal, cause we cant’ say we are perfect now,

There will always be room for change,and till there is room for change we will become better..

That’s my take…
what bout u

Since its’ more than 17 days (ref my last entry of 26 june) i guess its becoming a habit to be better.

Still a long way to go..

I am changing little by little.. i have even started to extend help to those whom otherwise i wouldnt’ have thought of.

I feel ok.

My expectations are same but i dont’ keep on blurting them too often, i try to listen and appreciate more and even if i dont’ feel like i try to delve more and be natural.

Cause if its all artifical – wont’ last long…

i can feel it.. am becoming better or maybe getting cured of my disease.. disease of being angry, disease of being lousy,disease of miscommunication..

As i try everyday each day at a time to be softer,kinder,tolerant, am feeling much satisfied with my own self.

I dont’ hate myself so much now..

i can see little changes developing in whom i communicate as i try more.

also it is necessary to give benefit of doubt to others as not many will respond if u believe in others humane abilities…

Little changes..

It takes enormous effort to be good… being a bad person is easy.
Wont’ happen in a day, everyday i promise myself to be little better than before, sometimes i fail too but its ok to see defeat right in the face, then it becomes less alluring, less interesting so we tend to lose interest in it and shift our attention to winning well there might be different outcomes in different cases.

But again the point is to take it simple with simpler tasks to follow..

I once read somewhere that if u want to make something a habit, u need to do it 17 times in a row…..!

Well that might help, dont u think?

Good for giving up addictions too!