pray more

I’ve been much more in touch with what I think of as God lately. I’ve been closing my eyes and praying at random moments through out the day. I feel much stronger than I have in the past and I love this feeling! I will continue to talk to God.

Ok,

A lot of people would be surprised that I added this to my list. But I need love and I need support. I’ve always believed in God. But I’ve never believed in organized religion. I can’t tell you how many people have tried to get me to go to church, join bible studies, or pray ‘with them’. For me, God and spiritualism is a personal thing which should not be discussed. It is a relationship between that person and their God. I like to keep it personal and private.

I say this but I would like to be able to mention God to my boyfriend. He gets mad if I bring it up because he’s agnostic and has had bad experiences with people trying to convert him. But too bad for him. I will just have to keep this part of my life private (which is what I want anyway). I need to set aside time, take a break in the middle of the day when I’m feeling stressed and just pray. It helps me be. Just be. Just live, love , learn. I’m tired of being nervous about the future. If I talk to God, I can tell him my thoughts and he’ll handle it. I can trust Him. This is not the Christian God I’m talking about. This is just some ether of spirits I made up but I believe we all worship the same God anyway, he just has different names…