forgive those who have hurt me

I HAVE BEEN HURT ALOT IN MY PAST…BY EVERYONE I CAN THINK OF….THERE ISNT A PERSON I KNOW THAT HAS NOT HURT ME SOME HOW ..SOME WAY.. AT LEAST ONCE…I HAVE FELT ALOT OF HEARTACHE AND PAIN BECAUSE OF PEOPLE…I WANT TO LET GO OF THE PAIN AND FORGIVE ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE EVER HURT ME…THIS IS GONNA BE REALLY HARD..AND TAKE ALOT OF TIME..PATIENCE AND EFFORT…I WANT TO THINK OF THE BIG HURTS SO ONCE THEY ARE OUT THERE I CAN LET THEM GO…OK LET ME START AS A CHILD…I AM MAD BOUT MY DAD LEAVING ME AS A KID CUZ HE WAS SENT TO PRISON FOR 6 YEARS…I AM MAD BOUT MY MOM LEAVING ME AS A CHILD CUZ SHE WAS ALWAYS WORKING AND GOING TO COLLEGE.. I AM MAD THAT MY BROTHER WOULD ACT OUT SO BAD THAT HE HAD TO BE IN PLACEMENTS..I AM MAD THAT MY SISTER GOT SO DEPRESSED THAT SHE TRIED TO KILL HERSELF…I FELT ABANDONED..I AM MAD THAT MY DAUGHTERS DAD WOULD BEAT THE CRAP OUT OF ME EVERYDAY…AND THEN ALSO EMOTIONALLY ABUSE ME….I AM MAD THAT MY EX BF CHEATED ON MY WITH 6 DIFFERENT GIRLS…AND NOW HAS A KID WITH AN OLD FRIEND OF MINE…I AM MAD THAT MY DAUGHTERS AUNTS ALWAYS SAY THINGS TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD BOUT MYSELF..LIKE IF IT GIVES THEM PLEASURE..I AM MAD THAT MY BEST FRIEND WAS MURDERED AND HER KILLERS ARE STILL ALIVE..I AM MAD THAT A MAN THAT I LOVE AS A BROTHER IS ADDICTED TO DRUGS AND DOESNT SEE THAT EVERYTIME HE TAKES A HIT HE KILLS A PART OF ME…. I AM MAD THAT I HAVE TO RAISE MY DAUGHTER ON MY OWN…I AM MAD AT ALL THE PEOPLE THAT TELL ME THAT I AM TOO STUPID TO MAKE ANYTHING OUT OF MY LIFE.. I AM MAD AT ALL THE PEOPLE WHO CALL ME NAMES AND MAKE FUN OF ME FOR ANYTHING…I AM MAD AT ALL THE GUYS THAT THOUGHT THEY COULD TRY TO SLEEP WITH ME LIFE IF I WOULD GO FOR THAT..BUT MOST OF ALL I AM MAD AT MYSELF FOR KEEPING THIS IN FOR SO LONG…I NEED TO LET ALL THIS GO..AND THIS PAIN AND SUFFERING THAT STARTED WHEN I WAS A CHILD…AND I JUST GOT TO LIVE HAPPY …KNOWING THAT I AM A GOOD PERSON AND THAT I WILL CONTINUE TO BE ONE UNTIL MY LAST BREATH…NOW THAT IT IS OUT I AM GONNA TRY TO FORGIVE EVERYONE…GOD BE WITH ME CUZ I DONT HAVE THE STRENGTH TO DO IT ON MY OWN..