Stay focused on my goals

well right now my goal is homework..studying…and i am just not in the right mind to do it..i know i need to but for some reason i am stopping myself..ugh this sucks..i need to do it..i hope i can stay focused cause lately i have been very anxious and unable to sit still which btw sucks! something is wrong in my mind…idk what it is but i am gonna try to get this work done i hope i can do it :]

i have alot of goals in life…graduating school…going to college.. but most of all just living every day to the fullest and knowing that if i died today i would be happy with my life up 2 this point and the decisions i have made…that is why i think i am the way i am cuz i dont want to have anybody think anything bad about me when i am gone…i want people to understand that everything i did was for a good reason…i want to do everything that i am doing in memory of michelle cuz she wont get to do those things i want her to be my motivation..cuz something good has to come out of her death..and i dont see anyone else doing anything to make that happen..so like the saying goes if u want something done right u got to do it yourself…well that is where i stand i am not gonna wait for people to honor her..i am gonna start it with me…i love her so much…she is worth everything i am gonna do and more…well i got to start with studying ….cuz she never got to graduate i have to put more effort into everything i do..so i can say it did it with all my heart…i hope this goal will keep me inspired to keep going and as time goes i will try to keep progressing to further reach and hopefully out do my own goal… well for right now time is on my side…maybe i will do something good with my life…GOD be with me…if ur reading this pray for me…cuz i need all the help i can get..thank u and GOD bless