get back in school

ugh… i really suck

so i’ve narrowed it down to four schools…

i called them all and have appointments to see them all…

tomorrow i’m going up to Flint to check out one…

the one that i like the most is about 10 hours away from me…

i’m not going to visit them now… but maybe this summer i’ll go up there…

they have a super cool program and they also offer school in thailand to study Thai massage…

but i’ll keep my options open…

the one that is closes to me is also the most expensive lus they don’t touch too much on Eastern Massage…

ok… task for next time is to reasearch all four school very well…

whcih means visiting them and reading all their information…

mike

ok… did my research today and narrowed it down to five schools in michigan…

next steps is to come up with a list of questions i want to ask each school…

well the truth is that i’m really scared about going back to school… because i still don’t know what the hell i want to do…

nothing is hitting me…

yes… massage school… but is this really what i want?

what if there is something else that i like better… or that i’m more natural at…

i’m truly terrified that I’ll never figure out what i’m supposed to do on this earth…

i get bored of things super fast… and my interest changes daily…

how do people figure out this stuff… and are people truly happy with what they end up with?

not sure… i think that i’m just afraid of doing bad in massage school… and i just need to go forward with it…

and… if i don’t like it… well… i can do something else…

i just need to try… cause I’ll never know if i don’t try…

ok… goal is to fill out the application for the school here before i come back here in a week…

in a shot bit i’m going to fill out the application form for the massage school i want to get into…

i’m a bit nervous because it’s really expensive and hard to get into… but i have nothing to lose…

mike

ok.. for real… i’m looking into massage school tomorrow…

i mean it

well it’s set.. i’m going back to school in the winter… the thought makes me sick!

i keep making excuses… it’s just i’m not sure what i want to do… but i have a a few ideas and i’ve been looking into schools