feel comfortable looking people in the eyes

I think I do better at this when I feel better about myself. Right now I’m at one of my higher weights and I just feel disgusting and as a result I don’t want to look people in the eyes because I don’t really want anyone to see me. I like being invisible when I hate myself. I am working on this, trying really hard to lose 40 lbs (but only really started to focus this week). I just need to stay on task. I want to be a me I can be proud of…

This is something I’ve focused on before and done well with but in the last few weeks I have noticed that I have let myself start slacking at. I think this should only take a few weeks of concentration on before I’m at least back to status quo. I know a lot of it is self esteem based so I will have to relfect on that as well.