i want to fall in love with someone who loves me as much as i love them!

i saw the new richard gere movie last week. i realize i love my husband more then he loves me….it hurts but i derserve better. he moved out yesterday and i am so very very sad but i know its for the best…i guess. time will tell.

well, he has left. not sure where he went. but he agrees i need to have someone who will love me as much as i love them. i am not sure why i have fought so hard to keep my marriage together. i guess i just believe in us. he said today that i will find another…i dont want another….but he said someone will see my beautiful smile and scoop me up….omg wtf? ive learned you cant make anyone love you. i just want things to be like they use to…but i guess it is notmeant to be. we shall see now that he has left the house what the future holds. i think it holds a life without him and by myself. i dont think he will be back…it just hurts so fucken much. i hate life right now.

I thought my man loved me as much or even more then i loved him at one point. I have learned a lot since then. I hope we can work things out but if not….i will never put a loving relationship on “auto pilot”...it takes a lot of work and attention. I will also look for a different type of partner. one that knows how to communicate or at least have the desire to learn how. and stop blaming someone else for troubles in thier life.

FORGIVENESS OFFERS EVERYTHING I WANT!