overcome my depression.

My therapist resigned her position at the clinic, but said she won’t be referring me to anyone else. Evidently, I have completed enough homework to keep myself from spiralling into pits of despair whenever I get depressed. Yay for progress!

I’ve been fighting my depression for months, but it has been subsiding rather rapidly in the last few weeks. I’m spending more time with friends, making and fulfilling plans for the future, and generally living my life in a more positive manner. All in all, I’m thrilled with the way this goal turned out. I was a little concerned that I would just have to live with depression – something that would just be in the background in everything that I did – but this hasn’t been the case. The combination of medication, therapy, meeting social and work goals has all but dissolved my depression.

According to my doctor and therapist, I’m still depressed. Of course, my mood has leveled out, so I was beginning to think I was being underestimated; I figured I was doing better and it should be clear to everyone around me that I’m chipping away at my depression. Well, I’m still working on it. As I said, my mood has leveled out, but my head is still full of marshmallows from the medication. I’m hoping some of this is going to clear-up when the depression fully lifts, but I know that I’m still going to have some trouble thinking clearly from the seizure medication. At least, I think it’s the meds. Whatever it is, I can’t hide behind it. Being spacey is no excuse for not writing more or even finishing my degree.

Dancing wildly to the Divinyl’s “I Touch Myself” when it came on the radio was certainly a big boost for my mood.

I didn’t sleep very well (or, long) last night, so my energy levels are pretty low. Unfortunately, my mood has taken a beating because of this and I’ve had to rally myself to overcome it and make a better day for myself. It’s slow going, but I think I’m aware enough to know that I’m just having a lull; it doesn’t mean that I’m heading into some lengthy darkness.

Things on the depression front are getting better, now that I’m sleeping more and keeping regular hours. My energy levels are returning to normal, so I’m not sure how much longer I’m going to keep this as a goal. I’ll probably leave it up until I’m being social enough to call my goal of keeping in better touch with friends and family completed.