Forgive My Fiance

I started dating my fiance, Kevin, on May 22, 2007 and we have been together for 7 months. When we began dating, he was still talking actively to other girls, including his ex, and going to see them. He was also smoking weed (I didn’t find out about this until later) and because of this, he treated me very badly, never coming to see me and never talking to me and canceling our plans at the last minute to do something else. And in August, one of the girls (who I found out was his best friend) divulged a secret of mine to everyone that I had trusted only with Kevin. Even though all of this drove me crazy and I felt like ending it a billion times, I still stood by his side because I love him. Now, everything is better: he no longer does drugs, no longer talks to the girls, is devoted completely to me, and is sincerely sorry for what happened and has said that even if I do forgive him, he could never forgive himself. But I do want to forgive and him and to trust him again. I love him very much and I know that he loves me. I know that we can last in this world because our relationship and withstood the worst. I stood by him and he is willing to wait as long as needed for me to find closure on the issues. I hope that when the new year comes, we can start again like the new couple we are now and put this behind us.