Get up when my alarm goes off

I found out that if I have enough hours to sleep, I can peacefuly wake up to music – NOT AN ALARM.

Now the goal is to GET UP!! Not just wake up.

So, I get a great idea to do this, and then I don’t do it. I keep doing the same thing. I listen to the alarm go off for a whole hour and then argue in my head why I need to get up right then. This is beyond “will”. I know I probably need more sleep but there is something I believe that doesn’t let me “get up”. I keep telling myself “I have enough time”, even though I know better. Like right now, I KNOW I should go to bed but I keep thinking “in a second”. I have a really bad sense of time.

There’s gotta be a solution to this. When your will is not all there, how can you change, even though you really want to? How can I take charge of my will?

I can’t believe it but it worked! I prepared to go to bed when I was really sleepy, instead of stressing about having to get in bed just because I have to. I did what Steve Pavlina said and I practiced waking up with my alarm right away. I only practiced the routine once though, then I got in bed and fell asleep right away. I slept all night and when my alarm went off I woke up and GOT UP right away! I didn’t negotiate with my brain, it was almost like a game. It wasn’t either that hard at all.

What I like the best is that I don’t have to deal with this at night because my body will naturally get sleepy when it needs to go to bed, so I don’t have to feel bad about staying up while I feel awake – the whole thing about going to bed while I still have energy is very difficult for me.

So, the new thing I realized is that my problem being late is not related so much to how much time I have to get ready or prepare, it’s related to me not realizing how long things take me. That should be another goal: to learn to estimate time accurately. Let’s see how I get this done. All suggestions are welcomed.

But yaee for me! I woke up with my alarm and I get to go to bed when I’m sleepy and not earlier – woohoo!

I just read an article on Steve Pavina’s website (http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2006/04/how-to-get-up-right-away-when-your-alarm-goes-off/)
that describes a way to finally win the battle over not being able to get up when I want to. I’m going to start trying it.

Also, I just changed the name of this goal because the other one was doing anything for me. This conveys more my point. Sleeping during the day is pointless and so is being awake when the world is sleeping. I always heard that God made the night to sleep, that why sleeping is better when it’s dark, and that’s why we close our eyes and only see black.

So, as much as I grew up thinking that staying up late is “cool”, I have to get rid of that mentality and see that, unless I have a reason, it’s really a waste to sleep during the day – I don’t know how they do it in those countries where they have daylight 24/7 and vice versa.

Also, I’m making this my #1 goal because I need to be able to do SOMETHING to start my day right, and maybe this will help me with the rest.

I want to start tonight. Another goal for me should be to put into practice what I learn – I sure have learned a lot and not done much compared to it, in my opinion :)

Now with a new job I HAVE to wake up early. I should really go to bed early but I don’t and I’ve realized I need a lot of time to unwind before I fall asleep. Yet, I feel guilty doing that because I think I should use that “unwind” time to work on stuff I have pending. It’s a dilema. I shouldn’t even be on this computer right now and I should go get my laundry.

Okay, 10:47pm. Sex and the city is on at 11pm. I’m going to get a glass of chocolate milk, turn off this computer, and watch it in bed. Hopefully I’ll be sleeping by 12. I might take a pill. Whatever I can do because this can’t go on any longer. I don’t want to feel guilty about ending my day. I think that’s part of it. I don’t feel like I did enough during the day and I don’t want to go to bed until I stop feeling guilty. I hate it. I just realized how guilty I feel about everything I do or not do. I hope I can stop it.