Know that as important as hanging on is, so is knowing when to let go

There is a big difference between knowing when to let go, and being able to let go of your feelings. I know I should let go in theory, but it’s really hard in practice. Some feelings you just can’t control. But somehow I feel I’ve accomplished this because I’ve given up getting him back for a long time ago, and I never contact him anymore. I’m not even sure if I want him back or have genuine feelings for him. All I know is that whenever I think of him I get sad and full of regret for acting as a fool. And I doubt time will change that, because I’m not a person who can forget people I’ve loved. I can get over them, but never forget them.

But just for sure, I’ll keep this goal _{just a little longer.}

I do.

I have supressed these feelings for about 5 months now. Now I’ve realised I just have to face them to overcome them. I still have feelings for him. I don’t know why, how it’s even possible considering I didn’t even really knew him. Maybe it’s karma. After all, I cheated on him (which I’m not proud of). Guess I’ll just have to wait this one out…

I have to learn to let go of…

- Him… I think of him almost every day. It’s like I’m re-writing and sugarcoating history. The moment he stopped caring, I started. I guess it’s true that you always want what you can’t have. At least for me.

- My oldest, closest friend. She has become a total destructive person the last years. Though I wish I could help her, I’ve learned there is nothing I could do if I want to stay happy myself. I love her, but she’s eating my energy day by day.

- Other than that I have to let go of all the good times I’ve had, and instead focus on the present. Instead of being sad that it’s over, I should be happy it even happened.