get to goal weight

I have been on sabotage mode… really thinking I’m not worth looking after. Whats the point?

BUT I have to loose at least 20lbs my back is suffering and I have not had a pain free morning in a couple of months now. That is NOT good. If for nothing else I need to get back to 175 just for my back.

I cant remember how I got to the state in my head last year, before D, before my bcak op, and then just after it when I had the light bulb on in my head to make me no holds barred look after myself….? But whatever it is I need to get back to there….

Need help with this goal… Please? A cross between someone holding my hand and kickin me in the ass would be good!!!!!

Im in sabotage mode… it’s not good :-(

...is suffering again from my excess weight plus I feel horrid. I feel like I need to start caring about myself again. I keep thinking, well when housemate moves and I have the place to myself then I will, but it will be too late. I need to look after myself now but the place is way too dirty and messy ( she does not understand the concept of CLEANING!) and it’s hard for me to motivate myself when stuff is messy! It doesnt fit with the image of the thin healthy me… does that make sense!

Either way I need to stop making excuses and just get back into it.

... but I want to make this the focus of my life for the next few months. My health is important

This time last week…. 192.4lbs
After a Semi-successful juice week 187.4lbs

OVERALL GOAL 155-150

Short Term Goal – 175lbs by December 1st

I feel like I need some help.
2 guys have offered me help recently… one can get me a free gym membership ( yes please!) and the other can help train me to loose weight but also looking after my back.
I need to take them up on this, but more importantly I need to start caring about myself again, even though he doesnt care about me any more….
Urgh… he is still working his way into every crease and corner of my life!

I seem to be on a i dont give a sh** mode right now which is not true. I just keep eating and am feeling worse and worse by the minute. My back is suffering ( after surgery last year where my Dr told me I had to be max 175lbs – I was that, then got dumped and keep eating, I was 188 when i weighted myself the other day), my self esteem is suffering, but i just keep spiraling out of control to the fridge.

HELP!!!!

Chocolate eclaires and shop bought sandwiches is NOT going to help! URGH! Why do I do this?!

Im 187! I was 172 when my ex dumped me in March…. NOT GOOD! I need to get back to giving a damn about myself. So although life is crazy busy right now I’m going to plan in a new 7 day juice, smoothie, salad and soup plan to see how it goes! I need to get reading the book first before I can begin. I was 210 in july 2008 and I managed to loose my weight through intergrating juicing into my life and walking. I want to care enough about myself to do it for me again.

My overall goal weight is 150-155. 27 weeks left in the year… I should be able to get to 165 by the end of the year.

I had an operation last year and my surgeon told me if i didnt lose some serious weight he’d be seeing me again in a few years time. Well for the 1st time in my life that was the motivation I needed. I was doing really great and had lost 39lbs ( never hit that 40!!!!) and only had another another 15-20 to go to reach my goal….

But then I got dumped! And after the inital weight drop of shock, i have piled on 15lbs again….. I’m so not happy but I must not allow myself to undo all the hard work I put in since almost this time last year.

So Im putting it out there that TODAY I’m going to start caring about myself enough to look after my health…. And I’m going to plan in a 7 day juice detox in the diary as soon as I can, which is what kick started me last time.

Right off to have some fruit!