Must remember it is my life, my journey and no one else’s….
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it make me feel crap about myself. And all the positive things I know to be true about myself I second guess because someone else is doing something or has something or is something I want to be, do or have.
I don’t like the envy that comes out when I compare myself to others. I should be able to be happy for people, especially friends… and sometimes I am jealous but what is more overwhelming is the sense of “so whats the point of me doing it…. i haven’t got there yet, they’re doing it… I cant do it, I’ll never get there….” which I then use as an excuse to not take action….
This rant has just come about because I saw a status on Facebook (I took myself off there for 8 weeks as all I did was compare my life to the rubbish other people put up) from my old assistant who is successfully shooting for publications that I want to be shooting. Meanwhile I spend my time on money jobs ( still shooting) to pay my mortgage. And so through comparing I feel my confidence in my talent slip….and jealously and envy rise up in me. I hate it.
Time for bed! Tomorrow is a new day and I have to live MY life and no one else’s. Hopefully I’ll forget my old assistants life and focus on my own.
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