I am consumed with some of my goals.. so consumed that I miss things going on around me. I need to work on the balance between things in my life.
Someone gave me a gift yesterday and I never even saw it… walked away and left it… didn’t even remember they gave it to me until they mentioned it later. They spent good money on something for me.. an emotion… and I never even looked up… I was consumed by what I am doing.
It’s like this: I want a freedom that people dream about. It’s that I must have that freedom in my life.. I don’t have any other choice. A ex-girlfriend once said about me: “That’s Greg.. his motto is: Go Big.. or Go Home!”
I will make a conscious effort to pay more attention to the things around me.
I have been making a daily conscious effort to design my life. Plans I designed 4 months are playing out tremendously now in my daily routine. My days are shifting to my passion.. I expect soon that I will finally hit that threshold where I will begin critical mass for my life.
I have an amazing focus on an incredible outcome…
I remember that used to make “Invisible Contracts” in relationships. It would be between you and me… I would do “blank” and you would do “blank”. Except you didn’t know we had this little contract… only I knew… and when you didn’t keep your part of the contract, I would walk away. Instantly. That was my modus operandi. I was a cobra that would strike first without warning. I had been hurt in my life and I was not going to go through “that” again. That was my “auto pilot”.
So… here we are and I am glad to report that I now pay very close attention to exactly what I do and what I do not do. I am conscious of my emotions and the effect and or affect on others around me.
I love it. I have a lot of work to do here and I will continue to do my best.
I am the author of my life. I will pay more attention to my good and bad patterns. Every time that something good has happened in my life, I was there. Every time something bad has happened in my life… I was there then too. I will pay more attention to the patterns in my life specifically when I act on “auto pilot”… it’s usually a reaction of some kind. Sometimes emotional when I have gotten my feelings hurt or feel that I was slighted… those are the times when I notice act a specific way. I will now see those times when I do what I do and counter act in a different way… a more productive and positive way. I will be more conscious of my actions and reactions.
I am ready to begin the conscious design of my life.
I want to choose more my outcomes… meaning… not let life just happen to me in certain aspects. I will now consciously design what I want in certain areas. I think I am off to a great start by creating my list of the perfect soul mate.. only when I know what I am looking for will I be able to find it. I will also consciously design my job… I am lucky… I have an awesome job (it’s not by luck, I designed it like that by choices).
In my perfect world, I will be on my boat in the Caribbean for a few weeks with a lot of friends.. drinking beer… scuba diving.. etc. In my perfect world, I will live in Europe for the summer (working during the day via the internet and playing at night).
That is the life that I will now design.