ok, I guess my pack is about 3 or 4 weeks old :D
and still some left, even I gave some cigarette to my sister and others.
I havent been out partying for a while – i know bc. than i would not have any cigarette and im getting little bit crazy… i need to go out more often…
only bad points to the parties, me and my friends also realized that fact I smoke more than i used to when we are drinking/partying
but on the other hand i do not smoke on my balcony, it has the feeling like i was before my final exams /like SAT in USA but has two main parts one written in May for a week each day other subject, and one oral part in June all subjects at one day…:S/
and I always get nervous when I try to calm myself down at the balcony so i rather dont even smoke… its just has the opposite effect…
I really didnt smoke too much in the last times.
Except the iPhone auction… I was so damn nervous I dont win that phone that I smoked 3 cigarettes in a row, well coulnt the last…
BTW I dislike the smoke already, I just have the feeling that I must suck on something… – dont laugh xD
I caughed in the last times… and felt not right when smoked but did… it is crazy.
On Tuesday night we went to the cinema with my sister watching Tron at 10:30 p.m. and I realized that heeeey when we out from the cinema I am 20 – ok I was born around 2:30 p.m. but that was my birthDAY.
So smoked one before… i set on a bench to have the feeling like old times, when we started smoking.
I still have one cigarette, it is lying on the sofa in its box.
My sister wants meet to smoke it at the airport with her and her friend before they leave… I told her I just do it if they say thats their last cigarette, but at least they give up smoking.
They could smoke in the dane High School, but hopefully wont.
Today I meet my friends – at least those who dont have to study. I dunno I can resist, I must bc. than it will never end.
But we will celebrate my birthday in February after the examination period and I come back from France…
I want to say “I gave up smoking age 19.”
I turn 20 on 5th Jan :) around 14:30 lol
When I was in France I was also determined. How cool could that sound “I smoked my last cigarette in France”? But I ruined it… arrrrg – with rollin that RRRRRR
Ok the pack bought on Oct 13th wednesday lasted till 25th Monday. Note I had a party last Wednesday and I gave cigarettes to Z. also.
And absolutly GORGEOUS news: My BFF and her sister want to give up smoking also!!! :) She said it yesterday to me.
She really wants to change her life. Yep, we had some habits as teenagers that we can not do also as adults, bc. of the more responsibility.
Ok I am a teenager, still nineTEEN, but not for so long…
Sunday we celebrated my stepdad’s father’s birthday. So my stepsisters and stepbrother also came.
We used to smoke together this time. But now I didnt smoke with them, even I have a pocket of cigarette – that I bought and havent touched since last Wednesday. My stepbrother also asked me how could I resist smoking.
I told him, I dont want to, and I dont smoke sometimes for weeks, and I need both my legs in my fifties also. – not talking about my lungs…
So since the party on 29 Sept I haven’t smoked till Wednesday.
It was a freaking bad day… so I asked for a cigarette from A.
We smoked together one before going to the library.
And than heading home I was still in an awkvard mood and bought a really light cigarette… and smoked before my bus got off the station.
I tried to draw more when I saw the driver started the engine…after that I coughed so hard that everyone teased at me on the bus…
So I smoked 2,5 cigarette that day. – bc. I smoked one before.
Now I got this pocket untouched since than, and it is Friday night.
Note I dont go parties on the weekends… if I go that’s Wednesday :)
Ok guys. I knew it won’t work: “It is my last cigarette” kind of like way.
And it really doesn’t. For me it works like smoking even less…
Nowdays it happens to me I don’t smoke for 2 weeks. yippie
But on most Wednesdays when we go to a party or just drinking home with my friends I always fail.
When I am with my best friends and they smoke in front of me I can’t resist… fcuk old habits…
So the previous Wednesday I went to S. and we always smoked in front of the house, and she asked me if I go out with her talking and smoking. And I said ok. but i dont want to smoke…and it would be okay but at the 3/4 of her cigarette I couldnt resist asking for one.
And than we went to drinking with other friends- Z. gave me cigarettes there, I told her I dont want to buy one, bc. than I smoke all and I’d rather pay her next round, but she said it was okay- this was followed by a party…so you can imagine… I bought a pack of Dunhill the way down to the place.
However we didnt smoke all – bc. me and my BFF smoked it together.
Next day I felt my troath like when I was younger and sometimes smoked 2 packs – !oh my gosh how crazy i was – at a party… guess it is bc. I dont smoke so much nowdays, and my body has become unfamiliar to this amount of nickotine etc.
So I think about 10 cigarettes arent so bad a night out…considering how much I used to smoke.
closely 2 weeks without cigarette…unfortunatelly I have an exam tomorrow…
I want to quit smoking, bc. I worked in a Clinic this Summer.
And I saw the difference between ppl who lived healthier life and those who have smoked and drunk for ages.
I mean we often say – well especially here the younger kids as I did- we can die anytime crashed by a car/ tram. Yep, its true.
But you don’t consider the QUALITY of ur life, that how you will live in the next 30,40,50 years or more.
Back to the clinic: there was an old lady, whom I asked for her personal datas. And I was totally shocked bc. she was 92 YEARS OLD and she still could walk in a normal tempo and looked like max. 70.
And there were other patients, smokers and alcoholics who were lying in bed, amputated one leg etc. however they were around 50…
That’s what I don’t want… I wouldn’t care about dying sooner, but living like a zombie is not what I wish.