stop being a loser

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Okay, I really am a loser.
An ass hole.
Anything anyone throws at me, I deserve it.

All I ever do is argue with my mum. All over stupid things, and I don’t know why. It’s been getting worse as well. All I ever do is have a go at her, but it’s almost always unprovoked.

I’ve got her a ton of easter gifts which I had planned to give to her on saturday (I leave that day), but I might give them tomorrow instead, kinda to say sorry, since I has a massive shouting match to her today, all over a fucking dessert.

Got a one way ticket back to loserville.

In one sense, I lost my loser-ness I think.
But I gained a whole new type of loser-ness.
I think, that no matter how hard I try, i will always find something to be a loser at, and that this is more of something wrong in my head.

I have progressed little in this, I have progressed somewhat though.
It’s late now, but tomorrow, I’ll really start to kick this bad habit.

I’m a loser at life, I’ve accepted that much. Now all I can do is change that.
I’m such an underserving freak. I need to learn to be nicer to people who try so hard but I just screw them over.