appreciate life

I find it hard to appreciate life when it seems so worthless and when I feel so miserable 24/7

Today, another year older, another year wiser so they say.
I want to gain a new appreciation of life. It’s kind of silly how it’s taken ‘ichi rittoru no nadima’ ‘a litre of tears’ to make me realise it. It’s a very emotionalally moving docu-drama documenting the struggle of 15 year old Aya Ikeuchi, who’s been diagnosed with spinocerebellar degeneration – a terrible disease where the cerebellum of the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat. A cruel disease, as it does not affect the mind in the least. It’s an amazing serise, and the songs are amazing too. I think it’s fair to say, it makes everyone who watches cry. I say, watch this or you might miss your biggest ever life lesson.
Though, after watching it, I realised how much I blame everyone else for my mis-givings, and how I don’t appreciate what I have half as much as I should. So, today, I’ll begin my path to self appreciation. So many things I take for granted, that the serise puts into perspective. Being able to eat, drink, walk, talk. Many people really don’t apreciate how special these basic things are. If I had such a disease, I don’t think I would ever appreciate life or show such courage as Aya does.
I expect so much yet give so little, That’ll change too. Granted, it won’t happen over night, but it will happen in time. I actually look forward to it. Just being alive is a beatiful thing.
じゃ、 あした はじめろ