lose weight

hmm, need to plan my calories better. I always end up eating stuff at bout 8:30-9:00 to make up calories. It’s become a habit. Though I know I don’t HAVE to do it, as today proves. If I eat enough (or as today – too much), I can restrain myself.

On one note, I got beeped at by a car full of boys and given the thumbs up by them.

On another, not only did we eat chip shop chips, curry sauce and mushy peas, I decided to go and eat 300 calories worth of chocolate, and a biscuit. feeling a wee bit sick now, but still feeling the munchies :S

2600 calories total today. not a disaster by any means. I did a helova lotta walking today. I’ll consider it a reset to my metabolism and get on with life tomorrow.

The sad thing is, last time I ate a ton of chocolate, I enjoyed every square, today, while liking each square, I didn’t enjoy it as such.

binge.
I just ate about 500calories of chocolate. On a day where I have already over eaten.

Ahhhh.

What should I do!?

what a weekend of indulgence. Saturday: BBQ, birthday buffet.
Sunday: eating out with big portions.

However, I know this won’t have a bad effect. Because A: Days of over indulgence help your metabolism remain higher and B: I’ve been in a deficit for a while.

I just saw some great advice on livestrong, I thought some people here may find it useful / interesting:

“If you have a lot of weight to lose [i.e, less than 20 lbs], you can operate in a deficit because your body will happily eat away at your fat stores because they are unhealthy.

If you don’t have a lot of weight to lose, trying to lose weight in a deficit isn’t really beneficial. You don’t have fat stores for your body to snack on, and it perceives a lack of food as a sign to CONSERVE your fat in case there is a famine. (Thus, you will not lose fat.) If you are eating enough food, your body will know it’s not in a famine period, and drop the fat.”

So if your maintanance calories are 2000, eat about that!

I also found

“Calorie requirement for prisoners being starved for information:

The C.I.A. generally follows as a guideline a calorie requirement of 900 k/cal/day + 10 kcal/kg/day. This quantity is multiplied by 1.2 for a sedentary activity level or 1.4 for a moderate activity level. Regardless of this formula, the recommended minimum calorie intake is 1500 kcal/day, and in no event is the detainee allowed to receive less than 1000 kcal/day. “

On saturday my granma asked me to write down what i eat for a week, because she gained at her slimming world meeting and wants to lose! Wow.
She said she’d follow it to the T. My grandpa always says to her when she’s gained: ‘You need the granddaughter to come over and stay to sort you out.’
lol.

as for today… aspartame overload….
I ate 3/5 of a sugar free jelly and a mug of extra light horlicks. So much aspartame, I don’t even like the horlicks.

And, they aspartame gives you sugar cravings, it made me go and eat 3 biscuits!

I never get these with diet coke though… I suppose 2 helpings at once is never a good thing.

got back from France tonight. French exchange; a great experience! Host family were lovely.

I ate so much though. Lots of chocolate and sweets, and a whole pizza friday, and another saturday. Tartiflette, which is basically potatoes and ham in a delicious creamy cheese sauce, spaghetti carbonara, bolognaise, lasagne, chocolate dessert, lots and lots and lots of cheese.

I know I ate way over 2300 calories each day (the majority of which from sugar carbs). But, the way I see it, it gave my metabolism a good break. And, I really really enjoyed eating what I want when I wanted. I didn’t even bother counting calories ever.I loved the freedom. I don’t feel guilty, because I know that one week is nothing in the course of the rest of my life, and why should I let food spoil a great adventure? Also, I noticed a great increase in my energy levels. Warning sigal perhaps? Should up the calories in everyday life methinks.

Tomorrow though, back to normal. I may cut back a tiny bit, but not by too much. i know at most I could only have gained about 1.5 pounds of fat. 1.5 pounds, that is nothing. It’ll drop off when I go back to my normal routine. Bloating from sodium and sugar intake will be down within a week and I’ll feel better than ever.

off to france tomorrow, french exchange.

So, for a week, I cannot control what I eat.

I’ll embrace it. I’ll enjoy all the food I am given, and I am sure my metabolism will thank me for it.

I just want to have fun, not get concerned with numbers.

Went clothes shopping yesterday. I have found out one very annoying fact. I am inbetween sizes.

Whenever i buy jeans, either the legs are too baggy and the waist just right, or the waist really baggy and the legs right. Legs are more important. I have a belt.

Soo…jeans shopping will be painfully hard now. Damn size 7. Though, being a 6 is no good either because then I would have great trouble finding jeans in the first place.

I often end up eating for the sake of it, because I have the ‘leftover calories’ So if I have the odd 100 or so, I’ll have a piece of chocolate orange, or a ryevita ect. I don’t always want these things, but I eat them because I can.

That is something I need to work on, if I crave them and I have the calories, I’ll eat them. but, just because I am under so far, doesn’t mean I have to eat them. (I have a much higher calorie goal than most here).

Shitting myself about tomorrow. Dreading it, I’ve actually cried about it, it’s such a desperate situation. I probably have the best eating habits of anyone in school. Do they know the amount of girls who eat nothing at lunch, or only eat a small fruit salad or biscuit? I eat healthy, I eat enough to support myself and allow for growth. Why can’t they understand that. Why is it I am being pursued because I made healthy changes and lost weight. I ddn’t starve. I exercised. i stopped eating crap. They don’t tell the obese kids they have a health problem, or the extra skinny that they are too thin. They speak to me. They tell me I have a problem. I know it’s extra ordinary, how many teens know two jacks about nutrition? I did my research, that’s all i can say. And now I’m paying the price. This is the last straw. If the school continues it’s vendetta against me after my being weighed, I think I will stop cooperating with them completly. They cannot force me to do anything. Especially since I am eating normally.