think i need to go a little easier on myself, if i don’t like myself much no one else can, really need to give myself a break. can feel myself pushing everyone away, then i feel lonely then i push more people away, vicous cycle really, have been looking back through the last couple of years and the good friends i have let slip away, need to learn to value other peoples feeling higher, think i do in my head but not so much in my actions, not to late yet, hopefully, but could be one day soon if i’m not careful
had a fantastic coversation with a very dear friends the other night, she taught me that i had to share things and that i couldn’t keep everything bottle up inside or i would, as i did, just explode, need to learn to get the balance right
