Treat myself like my best friend.

‘Don’t cling to anything and don’t reject anything. Let come what comes, and accommodate yourself to that, whatever it is. If good mental images arise, that is fine. If bad mental images arise, that is fine, too. Look on all of it as equal, and make yourself comfortable with whatever happens. Don’t fight with what you experience, just observe it all mindfully.’

The person I am choosing to be from this day on is someone who is happy, great to be around, warm-hearted and fully accepting her own personality.

The qualities I most want to emphasize and enjoy in myself are:

• being straightforward
• having a good sense of humor
• being great to be around
• being loving
• being determined
  and
• being able to enjoy myself and celebrate successes.

I am now ready to give life to this new image of myself, from this day forth. I commit to reinforcing these qualities until they are a deeply ingrained part of who I am and who I am seen to be.

There I was yesterday saying how well I’m doing on this goal and blah blah.
And this morning I basically fail. Didn’t want to leave the house, just wanted to curl up and hide under a blanket and shut the world out. Started crying, thinking I have no control over my own life and feeling like a total loser. Said that I am a loser and that I cannot handle it anymore.

I don’t know whether all of this has to do with lack of sleep and lots of stress with work + part-time study, but whatever it is, it isn’t good.

:/

“When we go to our jobs, we are trading our life energy for money. The truth, while simple, is profound.”

- Your Money or Your Life

Okay, there has been the occasional ‘falling off the bandwagon’ but overall I’m much more forgiving with myself and I’m slowly moving towards truly believing that I do deserve what’s best.

I need to watch giving too much of myself at work, though. This week has been really tough on me. I, myself, am doing great in my job, it is the atmosphere and the tension in our team that’s slowly getting to me. And if the price of performing well at work is the amount of life I exchange for it, I’m only going to go so far.

I pledge to watch out for any ‘energy drainers’ and I will continue treating myself well and indulge myself occasionally.

Remember, your greatest ally or most powerful enemy is one and the same person – you.

- Fiona Harrold

Right here, right now I make the decision to appreciate myself more, give credit where it’s due, talk myself up. Cultivate kindness, compassion and respect – for myself. It’s my life. I choose to never demean or demoralize myself in public or private. I’ll drop false modesty. I’ll speak only well of myself.