To live instead of exist

That’s how I survive since my boyfriend left me…
I am miles away from the beloved ones living on my own in a place where i had nobody but him, even my best friend moved in other city so that makes things allot worst…
Since we broke up all am doing is just to imagine things happen, i imagine him being with me while shopping, I imagine him sitting in the kitchen while am cooking, sometimes i set the table for 2 all though am the only one dining… Am on anti-depressives for more then 2 weeks, they are suppose to help me live but I think they just drag me along….
When I went to work my boss looked at me and i could see pity in his eyes so that for he’d given me a month medical leave… Now am all alone in the house, I barely go out to make the groceries and when i do i always feel his presence around i feel him around everywhere I go as if he’s chasing me… Am desperate and everyone things am nuts my neighbors think i need admission in a hospital, i feel am lost am afraid of what’s going to happen to me… I want to live but all I do is trying to survive….