fast

i am going to try to go on a water fast for a bit…even if like a day with a detox tea, just to rid of the grease and fatty foods that i have been consuming…then i will attempt to follow that by a juice fast. i cannot make any promises to myself but i will try my best—-with being depressed alot of the time now, it is a little difficult to do this but i will try my best; i am tired of feeling sluggish and bloated and want to feel invigorated.

i am going to go on a juice fast starting tomorrow and take a detox tea as well.
i am not sure of the time limit yet but i know that if i made one, i would give up because i would obsess about the food i would be eating afterwards.

there is so much going on and i am so stressed out and keep over eatind, damaging myself, and obsessing about food.

knowing that i will be omsuming juice will help me, i will get detoxed, and i really need a clearer mind because ontop of all the other stress, i do not want to keep stressing over my food.

wish me luck.

unfortunately i temporarily stopped a little after the first day, because i did not want to take the chance of gaining weight.
lucky after i stopped it yesturday though,
i actually started to lose weight. in another week or so i do want to do another fast.

i’m starting day two right of my juice fast right now.
i’m going to try mixing the juice with more water today.

last night i got a little bit of a headache as well as some dizziness, so i took a couple of sleeping pills and went to bed.

today i woke up feeling pretty clear and refreshed. i weighed myself and lost a pound and a half since yesturday morning.

i’m still a little concerned about four days from now, when i have to eat…i’m hoping the small amount of vegetables i eat will to not make me gain weight. i also don’t know if i should go back to resuming the fast right after i finish eating or if i should wait a couple of days.

i feel really good though and wish i could do this for longer then five days.

this is my first day of my juice fast.
i’m planning on going for five days but then on day 5, i HAVE to go somewhere where i am required to eat.
i am hoping that if i have just a small portion of vegetables that i will not gain the weight back.
or feel really crappy again.

so i don’t know if i should pick the fast after i leave? i’m hoping that i will have not gained all the weight back because of this one small meal. and if that did happen i don’t know if the best thing to do would be waiting for a few days then picking it back up.

i’m really unsure what i should do.