why do i always end up like this?
2 years ago
today, just this one day, i promised myself i would not let my fears get to me/i would not over react.
of course the thoughts started coming and i started thinking of germs and disease and i started crying. i knew it was happening because i was so nervous- my body was acting different and jittery- mostly because i’m taking non-prescription sleeping pills and get many bad nights of sleep.
i know i am healthy though- i’ve gotten many tests and all my doctors say i’m fine i just never believe them when they say that three months is plenty of time to tell if there was something wrong with all the technology today.
i hate that i’m always like this.
